so hello, basically i am making this blog to serve as a goal and accountability step to my continued battle of the bulge. i have a spent the majority of my life on diets, counting calories, obsessing about my weight, being self-conscious, wearing clothing that cover my butt at all times, etc.
my main problem is that i heart food way too much. i eat when i am happy. i eat when i am sad. i eat when i am stressed. i eat when i am mad. lol, i am starting to sound like Dr. Suess, but that is the truth of the matter.
from the very start of my young age, i always felt 'different' from the other little girls because i always seemed to have that excess of baby fat that never seemed to detatch itself from body. i carried that feeling of 'difference' all the way through elementary, jr. high, and high school.
finally a miracle occured. i got skinny! right at the end of my senior year, all of my weight seemed disappear. i now realize that i was no way near toned by today's standard of fitness, but at age 19, i was 119 pounds and that was all i cared about. i got my first job before i graduated high-school and stayed at a good weight up until my mid 20's. of course when i was at my skinniest i always felt fat (but that is another story).
it was about the time i turned 25, i got my first sit-down job (i had always been doing cashier/retail jobs which required me to stand and move around all day). it was basically all downhill from there. the weight slowly but surely started to creep up on me before i even realized what was going on. by the time i had turned 30 i had reached a very high embarassing 185 lbs. in 2000 i decided to try Weight Watchers. i was very impressed. i ended up losing about 25 pounds and kept it off for about 4 years. but once again, those nasty pounds found their way back to my body and then some.
i have spent my 30's in misery. for the past 5 years i have tipped the scales at a little bit over the 200 mark and i had told myself it would never happen. but it did :( i am only 5'3" tall.
today is March 10, 2012. on Novermber 20, 2012 i will be turning 40.. yes 40, the BIG FOUR OH!! i have got to make some serious changes in my life if i want to rid myself of this excess baggage and get the body that i deserve to have. if jennifer aniston and j-lo can be fit and fab at 40, then so can i. there are exactly 254 days for me to get to the goal weight of my dreams. i think 8 months and 10 days is a reasonable amount of time for me to get to this goal.
starting tomorrow, i will be blogging about my daily fight to win in losing. i will be charting my exercise and my food intake. i will be relying on tips that i learned in Weight Watchers as well as any other information that i find on the net. i have many challenges to over come. i still have a sit down job (that is very stressful, btw). i have co-workers that love to eat. i have a long commute back and forth to work (so that is more sitting), i live with a man that can eat ANYTHING and not gain weight. these are just a few of my daily demons.
i was also diagnosed with being hypo-thyroid. this means that my metabolism is slower and it will take me longer to lose the weight compared to someone with a normal metabolism. (lucky me). i do take thyroid medication to keep my metabolism at bay, but it is still not as easy to lose.
i am putting this out there for the world to see because i need to keep myself in check and accountable. i am sick of failing. epic failing is more like it. no more. i am getting back on track and if you care to join me in this journey and cheer me on i will be forever grateful :)
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